The Sweetest Sound…

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…the amazing heartbeats of our beautiful baby girl!!!!

Brian and I are simply overjoyed to announce that we will be welcoming a special blessing into our family this summer!! We are over the moon in love with our sweet baby and so happy to share this news with the world!

Our new favorite photo of Baby Bell at 20.5 weeks. :)

This baby is a precious gift and the answer to years of countless prayers, tears, loss and enduring hope. I’d love to share a bit of our journey with you. Not to compare or gain pity, but to shine an amazing light on how God has moved in our lives over the past 4 years and delivered us through some of the darkest trials I’ve ever known; as a testimony to God’s unending faithfulness and love even when life falls apart.

Brian and I have been married for almost 6 years. I couldn’t have been blessed with a more perfect man for me and thank the Lord every day for placing him in my life to have to do life together. He exudes patience, love, strength and grace and gives me the best hugs on the hardest days. We have the sweetest 2 year old golden retriever puppy, Ellie, who has the most sensitive and loving spirit. She is going to be the best big sister! :)

Our little family has been faced with many challenges and difficult days but they have become a very important part of who we are and how God has shaped us. Brian and I have always had a heart for children and desire to be parents. And, I have always felt like one of my deep seeded purposes in life is to be a mom. For the past 4 years, we have struggled through infertility and loss. I had a feeling it wouldn’t be easy for us to get pregnant as my hormone levels have never truly been balanced. So, after trying for over a year, we decided to see an OB and decided to start medication treatment. The night before I was to start the meds, I decided to take a pregnancy test (you know, just in case). Well, we were very surprised to find out in August of 2010 that we were expecting a baby. We were thrilled and so very thankful! Sadly, in October, 2010 we found out we had lost our baby. I spent the next couple weeks miscarrying and grieving all while working full time in therapy and pretending like I wasn’t falling apart when inside I was completely devastated. No one talks about how difficult and trying miscarriage is on a marriage. Brian and I both had different ways of grieving and difficulty understanding what the other was experiencing. How do you explain feeling pregnant and then one day waking up and it’s gone and so is your baby?

Through countless doctor appointments, treatments and tears we were able to get pregnant again this past August and this time we were both able to see the baby and hear the heartbeat at 7 weeks. It was simply beautiful and a memory of our second baby that we will cherish forever. Sadly, at our 10 week appointment, we found out that our baby’s heartbeat had stopped and we had lost another child. “They” say two miscarriages is “common” (as if that is to be comforting); to me it just felt unbearable. I still struggle to find the words to describe how horrific that day and following days/weeks were but I do remember thinking that I wasn’t going to survive this alone. Praise the Lord that He never leaves us! Even when I have trouble feeling Him near, I trust He is there and was the One who carried us through those dark days. I also trust that our babies are in a better more beautiful place with our Jesus who loves them, and I can’t wait for the day when I will get to hold them again, this time in my arms.

Brian and I decided to just stop treatments and trying for a while, thinking that maybe there was a different plan for us. We went away on an anniversary trip about a month after the loss of our baby and 7 weeks later received the BIGGEST little SURPRISE :) I wish I could say that my initial thought when we found out we were expecting again was excitement….I was actually terrified that I was going to loss the baby; that is all I’ve known. So, I prayed ALOT…every day, hour, minute. I let go of control and we took it one day at a time. And PRAISE THE LORD we will be at 24 weeks on Monday and have been able to hear, see and feel our precious baby!!  We had an ultrasound at 20.5 weeks and found out that we are expecting a healthy, very active, little girl! It was the most beautiful and surreal moment that I never wanted to end.

We are so very thankful for this life and the gift that she is to us and the world! Now, close to 24 weeks and with the sweet flutters of our little baby inside, we feel very blessed and feel everything we’ve been though has helped us to grow stronger in our marriage and in our faith and has given us great insight into how truly precious life is. We’ve learned to appreciate each day we are given as a beautiful gift! And we view our story as just one testimony to how amazing and faithful is our God!

Baby and me at 21 weeks :)

 

I know that some reading this may be experiencing an infertility journey and hold losses of your own and that everyone’s journey is different, some shorter, some longer. But, my prayer is that if you are reading this, that you would be encouraged to know that you are not alone and that God is good and knows the desires of your heart. While, He doesn’t always deliver us from trials, He always delivers us through them. I’ve also learned that God is full of amazing surprises :)

Thank you to all our amazing family and friends for your unending love, prayers and support! We are so very thankful for everyone who has walked with us and continue to as we excitedly look forward to welcoming this little one into the world!

Much Love & Hugs,

Erin

Proverbs 3:5-6

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  1. Tim and Annie

    Wow. Just wow. You two are ordained by the Lord to be together, and to be awesome parents. You have endured great struggle, and the Lord will bring such a beautiful thing out of the ashes of your loss. Looking forward to great photography of your precious little girl.

    We love you guys, and look forward to reuniting in MN someday soon!

    Tim and Annie

  2. Molly V

    Erin, I am so thrilled for you to have the joy of sharing this news! It reminds me how grateful I am for all God has done in your life and in my own since our stories are so similar. Praising God for this little girl you are going to welcome into the world. She is loved by so many already! And you are, too!

  3. Janie Pearson

    Thanks for sharing your story and beautiful photos! I couldn’t be happier for you and can’t wait to see newborn photography of your little one. So much to look forward to!!!

  4. Jasey

    Congratulations! We are so overjoyed for you and Brian! We think and pray for all 3 of you! So wonderful! Love and Hugs! :)

  5. Dani | Studio Fleurette

    Congratulations Erin! SO happy for you!!

  6. Becky

    Love you sweet girl (and the sweet one inside of you.) Can’t wait to meet her!

  7. Allison

    Praise God! Thank you for sharing your journey; I know that takes courage! You look SO beautiful and I am joyful for you guys!

  8. Karis

    Congratulations, Erin and Brian! Thank you for sharing your story, the joys and the pain. So odd how intertwined they always are. We are praying with you for a safe delivery and know you are going to continue to love being parents. I hope we get to meet your little treasure soon!

  9. Jo-Ann Russell

    I am crying with joy! Thanks for sharing this.

  10. Great Grandparents--Phil & Ruth Russell

    We have benn praying daily for that new life you are carrying and can’t wait to see our 3rd great grand daughter!! Especially after 5 grandsons!!! Our love & prayers, Grandpa & Grandma Russell

  11. jackie

    Erin and Brian I am so happy for both of you. Your story made me cry and smile. I can hardly wait to see pictures of your beautiful little girl.
    Love Aunt Jackie

  12. Ginny

    Erin, Brian, Ellie, and baby Bell,
    Thanks for sharing your story so openly and allowing our friends and family to share in your journey, both the joys and the struggles. You are dearly loved and we look forward to meeting this baby granddaughter!. We pray for you regularly. Praise God for giving you the strength to endure and the hope and joy to follow.
    WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! GInny & Len

  13. Barb and Kent Nelson

    CONGRATS AND GOD BLESS…may he continue to bless you with the greatest gift of all–a child……all the best from our house to yours…

  14. Emily Bell

    So happy to see how God has blessed you! Praying for all three of you.

  15. Lisa

    Congratulations! My heart swells with joy for you both. There is a history of miscarriages in my family, too, and while it makes the history more painful to tell, I like to think it makes the present that much sweeter. Your story is beautiful, and that little daughter of yours is going to be so blessed to have you two as parents!

  16. Anne

    Erin! First of all, congratulations and thank you for sharing your and Brian’s story. Ryan and I have also been on a very long journey with infertility. Your story has been very encouraging to read and we continue to pray that God will bless us with our desire to be parents too. I’m glad to hear you’re doing well. You look great! Thanks for sharing your story. :)

  17. Erika

    We are completely overjoyed for you and Brian and cannot WAIT to meet your sweet little girl. What a lucky little lady she is to have you two as her parents. :)

    Also, thank you for writing so openly about a topic that’s so incredibly painful. It breaks my heart that you had to endure such tragedy. You are one of the strongest couples I know and I truly admire you.

    You guys are amazing and so loved. Now let’s hurry up to August so we can all meet your baby girl!! :)

  18. Nicole

    SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!!!

    Erin, what a beautiful story and images- thank you so much for sharing.

  19. Melody

    What a blessing and testimony of your darkest days! Thank you for sharing a part of your story. I LOVE you all soooo much, B, E, Ellie, and the babe <3!!!

  20. Briana

    Erin, thanks for sharing your story. I am so happy for you and Brian, and you will be fantastic parents! Can’t wait to meet the little coder :)

  21. Susie

    Hello Erin, So excited to hear your good news! Sadly I know the pain of loss as well. We have lost three little ones we never were able to hold as well. We are so blessed to have two sweet girls in our lives. Thank you for your witness and words. This can be so hard to give to the Lord and give up control with also. There is a great song that JJ Heller sings on her new albumn and it really touched me. Her lyrics say “I don’t know what you’re doing, but I know who you are.” Blesings Erin!

  22. courtney337@gmail.com

    Congratulations Erin and Brian!!!! We are so happy for you! Love you guys =)

  23. Desiree'

    Erin and Brian, that was beautiful and we love you both so much. My heart goes out to you both. We are so excited about your little baby girl and can’t wait to meet her. Nathan and I pray for her and you both every night!

  24. syd

    God is so GOOD! I am so grateful and blessed to call you my friend – you are the strongest lady I know. God has truly blessed you, Brian and Ellie with this amazing little girl and I can’t wait to meet her soon! So proud of you for sharing your story here – God has a way of always working for the good of those who love him :) I LOVE YOU! xoxo.

  25. Rachel

    Oh my goodness – Congratulations!!! Thank you for sharing your story.. I can’t imagine what you have been through. I’m so happy to hear that everything is going great for you now! :) Parenthood is amazing!

  26. Cheryl Sweeney

    Reading this brought tears to my eyes, I am so incredibly happy for both of you. Sooo excited for you guys to hold this little one now and in the future and bring her up surrounded with love. God’s blessings on you and her!!!

  27. Marijah

    I am so happy for you both!! God is a wonderful God… Your prayers are always answered at the right timing. Congrats

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Six months ~ Lifestyle

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Sweet little Wren turned 6 months last month and to celebrate, we decided to do a wonderfully relaxed, lifestyle photo session at home with her amazing parents and big brother! I seriously adore this family, beyond words really and every opportunity I have to photograph them is a true gift. I hope you all enjoy some of my favorite memories and moments that were captured that day!! ~E

One of my all time faves :)

 

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  1. Erin

    Thanks Janie!! You are always so encouraging! Hope you are doing great!

  2. Janie Pearson

    These photos are AMAZING. And so inspiring. Love your work.

  3. Erin

    Yay!! Thanks Alyssa! :)

  4. Alyssa

    Erin- You’re so sweet! Thank you so much for these wonderful photos. Your all time favorite is ours too. I enjoy seeing the ones you pick out. :)

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